What the Hell!!!

So I haven't posted in a few days because I have been pissed off about a comment someone close to me said when they heard I was working to looses weight. I know they weren't trying to be mean and didn't mean it to hurt my feelings, but it totally did. I am fat (lets not candy coat it!) I am fat because I eat too much and do not workout. It is my fault I know this. But to say that I can never be as thin as my sister is crazy, and that I am just built bigger, and have a bigger frame then her. I am not saying that I want to be Skinner then her I just want to loose some weight. Yes I'd love to be thin not only because clothes would fit better but I would also be healthier then I am right now. It just made me upset and made me more determined to prove this person wrong.

As today... I weigh 179 lbs, I have 4 lbs  to go until I get my gift card form Kevin for 10lbs. It seems like its taking for ever to loose weight, but my hope is that once it comes off it will stay off. I am going to kinda fallow the weight watchers plan (since I still have all the stuff) and see if I can get in gear a bit and drop a bit more before I end up pregnant. Since I will have to stop dieting, and just be healthy and watch what I eat.
I did only gain 5 lbs with Andrew and that was the last week, but I never did get back up to my pre- pregnancy weight until they gave me pitocin to induce labor. I was 203 when I left the hospital. ( I have never told anyone but Kevin that fact. But I have lost 20lbs since that day and I haven't gone back up. I had been stuck at 189 for months and months and now I am at 179 and can see me going down even more. I have the drive and am wanting to prove that I can do this.

Why?
I want to be there to see my baby grow up and graduate high school, to get married and have his babies. I want to be there for him and for his life, and lats face it right now I have more risk factors then I want and being overweight is not going to make anything better. In fact it could make things worse.


I CAN AND WILL LOOSE WEIGHT AND HIT MY GOAL.
starting with this first 10 lbs, and I am over half way there.

I am feeling better now what I have got that off my chest.