What the Hell!!!

So I haven't posted in a few days because I have been pissed off about a comment someone close to me said when they heard I was working to looses weight. I know they weren't trying to be mean and didn't mean it to hurt my feelings, but it totally did. I am fat (lets not candy coat it!) I am fat because I eat too much and do not workout. It is my fault I know this. But to say that I can never be as thin as my sister is crazy, and that I am just built bigger, and have a bigger frame then her. I am not saying that I want to be Skinner then her I just want to loose some weight. Yes I'd love to be thin not only because clothes would fit better but I would also be healthier then I am right now. It just made me upset and made me more determined to prove this person wrong.

As today... I weigh 179 lbs, I have 4 lbs  to go until I get my gift card form Kevin for 10lbs. It seems like its taking for ever to loose weight, but my hope is that once it comes off it will stay off. I am going to kinda fallow the weight watchers plan (since I still have all the stuff) and see if I can get in gear a bit and drop a bit more before I end up pregnant. Since I will have to stop dieting, and just be healthy and watch what I eat.
I did only gain 5 lbs with Andrew and that was the last week, but I never did get back up to my pre- pregnancy weight until they gave me pitocin to induce labor. I was 203 when I left the hospital. ( I have never told anyone but Kevin that fact. But I have lost 20lbs since that day and I haven't gone back up. I had been stuck at 189 for months and months and now I am at 179 and can see me going down even more. I have the drive and am wanting to prove that I can do this.

Why?
I want to be there to see my baby grow up and graduate high school, to get married and have his babies. I want to be there for him and for his life, and lats face it right now I have more risk factors then I want and being overweight is not going to make anything better. In fact it could make things worse.


I CAN AND WILL LOOSE WEIGHT AND HIT MY GOAL.
starting with this first 10 lbs, and I am over half way there.

I am feeling better now what I have got that off my chest.

Dinner last night

Grandma made fried chicken strips, mashed potatoes, gravy, biscuits, pickled beets and dump cake. Kevin would have loved to stay for dinner one of his favorites, but not what is going to help me slim down. I have to come up with a plan for eating at grandmas with out packing on the pounds. She is a wonderful cook and I love her food my only problem is I don't have portion control down and would eat too much of the yummy food. So we went home and I made dinner.
I cooked a few (2) small steaks, sliced them over spinach, cooked peppers and onions, fresh tomatoes, cucumbers, olives, feta cheese and radishes. It was so YUMMY!!!! and I didn't feel bad for eating it because it was fresh and seemed healthy to me. Maybe I'm wrong, but man it was good. I will be making it more often and hope to find more recipes like it for fast and yummy healthy dinners. I may have to bring my stuff and make our dinner at grandmas so I can be here to help, but not eat since I just cant eat her Deliciously yummy food that is packing the pounds on my fanny. (I know its not the food, its eating too much of it and until I can work that part out this will have to be my plan.)

Didn't go for that walk today or drink my water. But I will try again tonight.
Check back for breakfast and lunch and dinner, and a workout update.

Today I weight...

Today's weight is 180. 5 lbs down and 5 lbs to go to get my card. I have been sucky about watching what I eat and how I work out. I took up a new hobby and its sucking my time because it is fun. But my goal for the next 28 days is to go and walk 1 mile a day. Just one mile! (more is okay but less is not) I also need to drink 4 of my water bottles a day. I will work more on my diet and more exercise after I finish these 28 days and get water and a bit of workout.
Day 1: 1/19/2011 Weight 180 lbs.
Day 28:2/15/2011 Goal is 170 lbs.

I'll also try to post most days how things are going, that I have done my workout and also diet for that day. I will also be weighing in on Wednesday from now on.

Friday 1/7/2011 start date

So Kevin and I have a deal going on for every 10 lbs I loose I will get a $25.00 gift card to Victoria secrets or Fredrick's of Hollywood. Our start weight is 185 lbs. So my first card will be at 175 lbs. Hopefully it will be soon!! I will do my first weigh in Friday morning and then every Friday from then on. My workout and diet goals are in the planning stage still and should be up soon.
I had planned on starting on the first but since we had the extra kids that week it was just too hard to diet or have extra time to work out with them around. But now that things have settled I am great to go. Here is to getting in shape and healthy this year!?!